I’ve recently turned 23 and I’ve honestly never felt so old yet young at the same time. I feel naive and in over my head but I also feel worn and damaged. I feel like life has used me up for all I’ve got and has left me to survive on very little. At uni,… Continue reading 23 and none the wiser
I recently turned 23. My friends threw me a super ride party, it was amazing and sweet and all things spectacular. Drinks flowed, lots of dancing and laughing. I told my boyfriend I loved him… And he said nothing. He’s said nothing since. I’ve mentioned it. He says nothing. He doesn’t love me. What do… Continue reading Oh…
I’m so fucking stuck.
When I look towards any sort of goal or achievement, I think I want a new flat. Minus one flat mate, adding in a new sofa and job.
Then I look further than that and it feels empty, like a new place would just have me questioning what I’m doing. Time and time I’ve asked – where’s the help for people out there? I want to do something but have to go back to college for it but also need to pay my rent. Where is the help. Where’s the advice. This is insane. Untapped market or is this is how to keep the rich rich and the poor stuck.
Working in retail, it’s lucky to have the weekends off. But i do. Yet I do…nothing. Yesterday I worked overtime and left after 6 hours because I’ve caught what I assume is the flu, and whined until they let me go, despite the lack of staff. Sorry not sorry. And today me and the boyf… Continue reading Restless
New relationships. How do you make it work? I’ve been in one relationship in my life. It was intense and passionate but kinda dumb too. Now I’m older and apparently wiser but still a little lost on how to do the whole thing. I’m trying to incorporate all the things I think should be bog… Continue reading Holding back the crazy
I’ve dyed my hair green again. I did this two years ago and couldn’t get it out, had to bleach it twice, go to the hairdressers and get it cut out. Why have I done it again. Why. I’ve also not paid my rent. And spent my money on shite. And eaten shite. All of… Continue reading Not learning from mistakes
The local paper was out today and said ‘Friends bring you happiness’ – extremely vague but also true. My friends left yesterday and it was like a dominoe effect of the comedown. The unexplainable despair kicked up. Unprovoked sadness. Why do I want to cry? What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I just be happy?… Continue reading Comedown and ignorance