I’ve dyed my hair green again. I did this two years ago and couldn’t get it out, had to bleach it twice, go to the hairdressers and get it cut out. Why have I done it again. Why. I’ve also not paid my rent. And spent my money on shite. And eaten shite. All of… Continue reading Not learning from mistakes
The local paper was out today and said ‘Friends bring you happiness’ – extremely vague but also true. My friends left yesterday and it was like a dominoe effect of the comedown. The unexplainable despair kicked up. Unprovoked sadness. Why do I want to cry? What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I just be happy?… Continue reading Comedown and ignorance
I think a massive part of my depression, is that I prefer to be on my own. I like my own space and who doesn’t want to have a Netflix binge after work? I just tend to do it to a lot. After the full weekend with my boyfriend, I was immediately met with a… Continue reading Socialising vs liking my space
The last few months, hell, the last year, have been lack lustre. In all aspects of colour and music, my life has been quite dull. There seems to be a negative reaction to all positive ones. I got a new boyfriend- whilst simultaneously losing a friend. Both completely unrelated, it wasn’t some scandalous gossip girl… Continue reading Pull the release, already!!
Since January, I’ve been in a massive slump financially. I’m mentioned in previous blogs about it but nobody wants to listen to someone else moan about money but this is kind of different. This is why I’m in so much shit. About 3 years ago I started working at this place that’s rhymes with kizza… Continue reading Finance vs Integrity
I’ve always been a bossy boots. What I’ve not always been, is a girlfriend. At 22, I’ve only had one other boyfriend from my current. I was 15. It was the typical extremely melodramatic pairing, he was super moody and cool and I was the geek. I really loved that boy but when you’re at… Continue reading Overthinking or overpowering?
It’s in the title. The only time I actually think about doing something productive is when I’m doing the complete opposite. I finished work at half ten this morning, having only done a four hour day today, and what did I do? I borrowed money, made like four batches of rice for myself to eat… Continue reading Motivation starts from my bed